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it'll get better.
03:17
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build up your walls
build up your gates
climbing over stone
to say "hello"
people are great sometimes
when they're not lying
i lie sometimes
i'm just people too
saying "hello"
and saying "goodbye"
are just the same motions
with different reactions
people are great sometimes
when they are nice
i'm not nice sometimes
but i'm just people too
allow me in
i'll make it better
at least i'll try
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2. |
Something to Believe In
03:11
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open up to spring
and let it come inside
hold your hands in the air
feel the warm sunlight
and when you feel down
try to recognize
the people who care
for more than your thighs!
and if there's one thing i've learned
it would be:
thank goodness for friends!
thank goodness!
i was in my car
hungry and alone
but at least i was warm
with somewhere to go
things can never not get any worse
that's something to believe in!
jumping out of a second story window
is not that bad
getting drunk just because you're a little sad...
oh no...
i don't mind
the guilt will wash off
you had a good time
the guilt will wash off
i wish i could offer you a cure
i wish i could offer you a cure
i wish i could offer you a cure
i wish i could offer you a cure
and it will never not get any worse
that's something to believe in
and it will never not get any worse
that's something to believe in
and it will never not get any worse
that's something to believe in
and it will never not get any worse
that's something to believe in
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3. |
Dream #1
03:38
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he sat in that chair right there
his hair was long and thick
and his sidekicks were dressed in white
and he said "i'm sorry"
i think he did
i think he meant it
and he said, "i'll be gone soon"
"you have to care"
"you have to try."
had to go to work
had to go to class
i was wasting my time.
had to watch the clock
would he be gone by the time i got back?
i wake up knowing it wasn't true
but i felt it.
is it not real just because it did not happen?
but it did!
i saw him with an apologetic look
i saw him close his eyes
i wondered what his favorite record was
he said, "is that really what you're asking?"
"am i wasting my time?
dressed for work
i headed for class
i was lost.
dressed my best
i looked to impress
but there was no one.
i wanted to leave
but i stayed in my seat
so i missed my chance.
i gave up.
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The gray wall feeling
06:21
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(the gray wall feeling described by words over music)
dear savannah
(read your message today)
i don't know how to respond
(hope to see you one day)
(hope that sounds okay)
wrote in a song that i didn't want to talk for both sides of our conversations
so please excuse me, if i sound a bit confused
wait, what?
(the original lyric has been redacted)
allow me in
i'll make it better
i think, i'll do my best, please don't laugh
if i need, i'll knit you a sweater of tears
to hold and keep you cool this next summer
a hive of bees to keep you from getting lonely
without me
in your college
leave me a boy without knowledge
it's a stupid rhyme
i don't have the dime
to take a class
and make better lines.
this is how you make me feel.
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5. |
Feliz Casper Antonia II
05:59
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feliz casper antonia II
when you give up on everything
you are rewarded with nothing
nothing
but you can turn it to something
you can turn into something
cold is the hand which rocks your cradle
cold is the big room, you sleep in
fill it with flames of your puzzles
and your bunny rabbit
and your mother
and half of duckwards
the sock puppet
and part of your hand
part of your father
he never cared about you
you didn't do it
you didn't cause it
didn't set the flames which ended your time happy
you didn't do it, but no one believed it
living with your aunt in nebraska
you find that she believes you killed her brother
and promptly leaves to hawaii
filling the dog bowl high
filling your pantry low
you have to share with
sparky the magical pooch
deserving of more food than you
and you raise squigglez
you're jealous of their smiles
muppet face he hates himself
yes he does.
queen zaloo is a bitch
scissors scissors scissors scissors you do what you want
you say what you please
make me more like you
do surgery on me
duckwards
you are strong
today is a great day to be a duck
today is a bad day to be human
eating dog food
every day is a bad day to be human.
every day is a bad day to be human.
it never felt so clear as it does now
the world has given up on you and you've given up on yourself
the cuts, you cover in band-aids rinse them out
dye your hair pink, flip all the switches you need to
just get out.
you're out.
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6. |
Skating
02:33
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head hurts
eyes sting
i'm still breathing.
i'm still breathing
"is there anything i can do for you?"
"is there anyway we can help ease the pain of living in this cold harsh world?"
make summer come sooner please
i thought sneaking out into the night would make things better but the taste of whiskey is stuck in my mouth
i can't get it out
"is there anything we can do you for you? we're all here for you.
we're worried about your schooling."
"have you done your work?"
"have you found a special girl?"
every person that i try to love has been too broken from the last person that they tried to love
la la la.
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tell me all the reasons you'd want to love me
so i know what not to hate me for
so i can sleep now, on your floor
and don't tell me any advice
nothing free is very good anyways
and on me, it'd just be a waste
school assignments left uncompleted
it's my life it's my choices
let me make them let me regret them.
now, there's only one thing i can wish for
a cool death on space mountain
a day in which nothing matters
i fall off the ride and my bones crash into the earth
i stand up cause none are broken
would have stayed down if you hadn't spoken.
but there's something wrong i do not feel complete!
all this time and for nothing
would have been best if i stayed at nothing
soon you will drive me into a tree
a cool death on space mountain
the one i've always predicted
i still get offers and i still never say no
i'm starting to think i actually like it
the more and more learn to hate it
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8. |
Reasons to Stay in Bed
01:33
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i sat early next to you and i was wondering
how long would we be playing this game?
now that i just took my turn
but you never moved your pawn
i sat in this room and i was scared
how'd your mother find you coming in?
did she smell the whiskey? maybe the weed?
you tripped on a shoe walking in, you drunk fool!
you were at your work when you told me
you were listening to my new album
the one i wrote about you, i was a fool..
my face turned bright red.
i was lying in my bed when i realized
that i'm nice when i'm happy and when i'm utterly depressed
oh, anywhere in between, i'm a sarcastic stuttering mess
oh, anywhere between, it's probably best
i stay in bed.
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what you're running from is not what you need to be taken care of
take it back now
and hey, i've never seen that face before, that face in the mirror
this feeling is nothing new
ooo
what are you running from? i'm right here
you know my life drains on me.
oh, you know, i won't be around too long.
say goodbye while i'm here.
a person at my work once told me
i needed to do drugs if i ever wanted anyone to listen
no one at an open mic wants to hear a song about your dead cat
no one at an open mic wants to hear you stress for your test
"they just want to get drunk
they just want to get so drunk they don't even know which way is up."
edward scissorhands was a man who was made to do his best
and i am nothing like him
so instead i like to insist that i look just like him
so i can still feel somehow related
robin hood run to the castle and save your fair maiden
oh. what an honor!
and i will never be anything like him
totoro, the spirit of childhood
he is caring
and i will never be anything like him
i'm going to rub myself with this guitar string until i get a really really really bad burn
and i never realized just how much i enjoyed the smell of gasoline until it was all on my hands and all in my hair and i realized that
life isn't a video game
life isn't like your movies you have on your shelf.
it can always get worse.
i need to remind myself
but when you're sleeping in the backseat of your car its hard not to think
when your mother's an alcoholic narcissist
when everyday you wake up with a beating a headache
but at least you're alive.
it can always get worse
i need to remind myself
when your best friend says he wants to kill himself
when your mother screams that she wants to kill himself
when you're unsure if you really actually definitely want to kill yourself
it's hard not to say
"things can not get worse"
i lucked out on existing in the first place
just why'd i have to be part of this fucking race
i think i'd much prefer to be a sexless blob, or a cat, or a fox.
probably a cat.
there's a sign at my work that says beer is a sign from god the he loves us and wants us to have fun
but if he made the only escape something highly addictive and ultimately dangerous
then what the hell does that say about god?
i guess i should be happy, i have a roof over my head
and computer to make my songs at
but i wouldn't have even started writing songs
if i wasn't afraid i would kill myself without some form of expression.
i know i have a family that will love me unconditionally
but i can't shake this underlying feeling
that they wouldn't even know me if we didn't happen to have a similar relative.
i've created a world of fantasy inside of my head
where i can fully explore and cast magic spells
but the older I get, the less i visit
and i'm afraid my cats are getting lonely
i'm graduating high school, and that's pretty great
but really i'm afraid of what being an adult means
and how the hell i'm supposed to explain to people on the street
why i keep acting like a kid
and i guess this is it, the ending of the album
and i've got to say, this did not go nearly as expected
i came in with hope but now im utterly afraid...
that it will only get worse.
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