1. |
worst ever.
04:07
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on your birthday
you wouldnt let anybody
get you anything
so i think im gonna have to
sneak it into
your arms
and youll probably
hate it so much
cause i probably
payed way too much
no i dont expect you
to say very much
just please dont say
"it was the worst birthday ever."
i took myself down to the lake
where we once played
and dug our feet right down and
into the sand.
and i sunk right
down to the bottom
those rocks you gave me,
i couldnt help but hold onto them
and although i know
i probably, oh
wont be seein you again
i wouldnt say
"it was the worst party ever."
oh
so i ask you now
please dont go out
to the rocks and into
the cold, cold,
dark snow
and if you die
please take me with you
together we'll die
just like xiu xiu
and when we die
ill bleed red, you'll bleed blue
and i wouldnt say
"we were the worst people ever"
and although we try to live our
"best lives ever!!!"
were doomed to die our
"worst deaths...
ever."
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2. |
i am Small
04:18
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i am so small
i am so small
i can feel the weight
of the pain
again
the pain, i feel the pain
again
i can't cry.
i am so tiny
i am so tiny
that i can feel the world
spin
i feel the world as it
turns
i cant walk in a straight line.
you are so pretty
i find myself so lonely
and i can feel the weight of the world
pushing down
on me
i can feel the weight
of the pain
on my back.
on my back!
and i can feel the pain
of the world
i can feel the pain
in your legs
i will take the pain from you.
if i have to.
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3. |
i have PLANS
04:20
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4. |
Camping pt. 2
06:06
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(try your best and ill forgive you)
you left your diary sitting in the front seat
and all the leaves in your hair
you left them for me
no we can not just go diving
into the river, so great
so bare
(hey, alright. Yeah.)
and they all left us here
alone, and cold
and they were never ours to begin with
we knew that from the start
(hard to believe that ill be my own sacrifice to find my own self-indignity when its so hard to even understand what im searching for.)
you mussnt be scared
i wish i were there
to hold you.
and finally meet you.
(see the air clear, and the sky will glow with a great mighty glow!
good times are in the pipeline, i can feel it!)
the mountain we climbed was so steep
we reached the peak
and went back down
now erase.
replace.
repeat.
never get past the first page
if only we could eat good will
we'd never go hungry
from all the greeting cards
(you've gone cold.
your hold
feels like spoke.)
i suddenly feel scared...
i wish you were here
to hold me
and finally meet me.
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feels so strange.
in the rain...
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5. |
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saw Mount Eerie tonight
if you were real then I would say
"im so happy youre here.
and im glad you exist"
he sang of being in his twenties again
and a river floating through his bedroom
he said he'd stare at the cloudy sky
and see his loved there
i look next to me at the empty chair.
i am alone
dear god
i am alone
so ill dress up all my demons
well drink hot tea
well sit around in a circle
and gossip glee
dear god im a sad mess
dear god bless this mess!
dear god im a fucking mess!
dear god i am alone
i wont rest until my best has shown now from the test of will
my head is broke down
i am alone
saw Mount Eerie tonight
he sang of being in his twenties again
and a river floating through his bedroom
he saw you
in the sky.
i sat silent.
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6. |
how i am at 17
07:36
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ive run out of people to write
songs about
so now i will speak of myself
and let it all out
okay, well, two winters ago i wanted to kill myself
and again the next winter after
and now, well, i dunno
and now, well... i hope i dont...
i have no money
but i keep spending it all on
worthless things
like records and fast food
i keep giving all my shifts away
but i only have just one shift a week
i havent been there in over 2 months
i wanna quit but im afraid of getting a new one
oh my dear youve fallen fast, youve fallen far
let me hold you in my arms
and tell you "youll be alright."
thank you, id appreciate that
very much
i broke down crying
while i was writing "To the Cats Behind the Screen"
i had been visiting them every night
and my favorite one was suddenly gone
so i grabbed an adoption form, i filled it out
i wrote all their names down
under the reason why, i said
"im alone."
i hate this town!
its getting me down
my friends are fake and my body still aches
the ghosts all lie upon my walls
and they never come down
my brain is a sack of meat thats only goal is to eat itself.
undoing. coming undone.
my life has become painfully stagnant
my school is now less important
my past is now strikingly real
atleast what i can remember
and i only dance when im drunk or high
and i dont even like doing drugs
but i never say "no"
when im offered
and ive given up on a love life
because whod want to love a weak body like mine
and i think i might be bisexual but i hate having titles
so you'll never hear me say it out loud!
im struggling not to be a shitty person in todays society
it scares me
cause i lack empathy in almost everything
i find morbid things funny.
oh god, am i sociopath? am i that fucked up from my past?
no, i can't be. I want to be the best me i can ever possibly be.
but how can i do that when even i hate...
me?
is this?
is this how i am?
this is me at 17.
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7. |
i miss the Cornfields
01:43
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i miss the cornfields
their pearly gates
i want to be home soon.
i miss the cornfields
their busy streets
i want to be home soon.
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i really thought that i would be
much gladder after our
meeting yesterday
but i find im much sadder
and i think
im gonna stay that way
yeah, i think
im gonna stay that way
travel down to your favorite place
in which you lie
and i find that you will
have to be
coming back
someday maybe, i hope
you forgot your polaroids
so i will stay off your wall
i remember last summer
but now youre not like that at all
time how you change all my friends
kill them off one by one
time how you may do what you like to my body
gravity will take us all.
i missed you more than i let on
and i have nothing more to say about that
and ill stay silent
i wont say a single thing
youll never know
how badly i want to hear
you sing
you liked my songs, and i liked you.
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